Amanda

Constant visits while I'm out on the road... It's hard to leave, but you know where I lay my head...

2004-06-03T00:45:46Z

AT NIIIIIIIIIIGHT.

That is so sweet.

Letters to you byt Finch is a really sweet song too. <3

Again sorry for the lack of updates. No one really reads this. It's finally summer I spent the whole weekend with hannah, it was really fun. Well she stayed with me and i stayed with her on and off and we went swimming everyday. I got burned. Yeah... cool.

So now I'm sitting here, and working on getting ready for my trip!!!!! YAY YAY YAY YAY. It's gonna rock.

So Nate Barcalow is my new hero. He fucking rawks my sawks off. The new NFG cd is kick ass major. Here are some pictures of me...
If I must say so myself, this one is very freaky..

And this one I made for Caitlin..

Here's my best friend that went I can't find. HAHAHAHAHHAHA!!

Here is the missing sign icon that Caitlin made me...
I used it on Naptown, and then she made me one for here. Observe above please.
Here is another Graphic Caitlin made me and IM SO IN LOVE WITH IT I WANNA MARRY IT SOO BAD!

So there he is.. he so pretty. And he looks sooo nice. But Me and Caitlin searched 145 pages and we couldnt find him. He's lost. If you see him please return him to me or tell me his name.

I hate wild boyz...

2004-05-24T02:42:59Z

Ahaha, that show sucks..

So you like what I did with the thing? Isn't it tight? I'm soooo in love with it. And I'm also proud i did all this HTML by my self! GO ME GO ME!

walking example of you.. wait for the silence... talking backwards to you... it meant nothing to me, watching the world fall on you...

I love soty im in love with this band. I'm so in love it's replacing FOB.. ok, that means I really really love SOTY... hello they are gonna be in my cd player now.. OH YEAHHHHH... SOTY ROCKS MY WORLD.

Hey, so... I'm gonna go brush my teeth and go to sleep. I'll write tomorrow or something.

Hmm wait... I love GOD. :) He's awesome.. this song says it best...
Our God is an awesome God, he raised from Heaven above to.. something(sorry don't know the words) and this is a good song...
Lord I love to sing your praises... something oh how I lift your name on high.
That's it little children of Amanda's bible school.. now kids don't forget to say your prayers. :)

HEHE, I have always wanted to do this at the end of the thing or a note or something so I'm gonna do it now..

God bless,
Amanda

turtlenerdsrock @ 2004-05-22T21:42:00

2004-05-23T02:38:47Z

Well, I was going to post my emo poetry in here. But i decided not to.. haha. too bad LOSERS! I'm not that brave, you'd laugh at me.. so here's my favorite line out of Page Avenue(the song).

I'll tear down and tape it up by my own desire!

I'd like to think what I have is real...

2004-05-22T22:23:26Z

my lj died. it's okay though. I'm gonna start updating more, if I can. Sorry if I lie...

Hmm so what's it been, 2 weeks?

Whaaaaaatttttttttt I'm sleepy. No one is talking to me, heh oh well.

I wanna go to wal-mart i need the new nfg cd. It would make me soooooo happy if I could get that. I would just be so excited if someone bought it for me.

help, he is cute. haha, i'm a hypocrite. HAHA, i am such a big one. it's weird now... I should probably tell him because then I'd feel bad if I didn't.

House to myself. Talked to Jake... he has a sexy voice. He asked me how old we were and I go, um 14.. and he's like well at least yall are honest. I said, yep that's a good thing huh?

I wish I could write what's his face a poem so then he'd know what I really think of him. He is such an idiot and he doesn't know shit. I need to go some where... maybe I should go to his house.. OMG NOOOOOOOOOO. It's right down the road, I could walk there. I could call him. Will i say it, or will I let it go over the summer and never think about IT again?

Sorry but my hair is pretty.

I wish I had a dude who was my friend, and then we could be friends. I so wanna walk up to someone and talk to them and be like, hey wanna be my friend? that would so fricken rule.

OMG ITS ALMOST SUMMER
AHHHHHHHHAHHHHHHHHAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

ahaha, I'm so fricken excited. LYKE WOAH.

I miss you, call meeeeeeeee.

I served out my detention, and in the end i got an honorable mention...

2004-05-05T22:02:40Z

This is so weird. I dont know if i'm freaking out or what.

What happens if you don't like someone, or you tell yourself you don't, but really you do deep down? And your afraid of something, but you dont know what. Maybe it's because they are weird and young, and you like them, but you are afraid what people will say. Or what if you really don't know them, but they say you have a good personality when they don't even know you? What if they are nasty and they stalk you, and you tell yourself.. it's funny.. because it is? ORRRRRRRRRRR what if you're freaked out by the fact that a younger dude likes you, and you might be falling for it?

OKKKKK ragan or raegan or ragen or however he spells it is nice. sorry if you think im stupid, too bad. that kid is nicer than anyone i know. he puts up with so much shit, and is still nice to people. i pcik on him, and he just acts like no big thing. he can handle anything you face him with. OK so since yesterday he told me that kid likes me, I decided to ask him some stuff. I figured hed know and could help me(call me crazy--go screw a dog.) and what now? yes he actually had the answer to what i was looking for. I asked him if I should talk to that kid.. and he goes.. what? like what do you want to say? i said, i want to say.. dude, you like me? and ragan was like... hmm i dont know. maybe you should. i said, but i dont want to embarass him too much. (the poor kid triped today on the bus isle, poor kid. :( he was gonna get off the bus and some girl had his cd player and he reached for it and he fell on his butt. i felt bad for him. considering it was right by MY seat.) then i just said.. well maybe i'll say something... and ragan was like.. he always talks about you, and im just like.. okkkkkkkk what does he say? he goes, well he is always going, what will amanda do? whats amanda gonna do? whats her last name again? i like her personality... so i said, and how does he like my personality? ragan goes, hmm i saked him that, and he just said he knows by the way you talk to people. okkkkkk one i dont talk to people on the bus... this makes me think he is some where i dont know he is when i am and he stalks me. he actually gives me the creeps.. this is what made me freaked though..
ragan goes.. are you just telling yourself it's funny because you dont want to face the fact that a younger person likes you and you just might like him? because you are freaking out.
ok now.. that made me think.. maybe i am? i really wont know until i talk to him. so i think im gonna go talk to him or something. but he is so ugly... and yes i do think its funny.. but i cant decide if im just telling myself that.
What hold on.. i dont even know his name... i think its matthew but i dont know.
i dont know... im scared.

Hi...

2004-05-05T02:02:29Z

My internet was broken for 5 days!

Anyways too many stuff happend...
I'm tired heres the short cut for the past few days and today...
jake has a 7-inch weenie
some freaky dude likes me
me and erin are married
caitlin is awesome
erin is awesome
band concert
robby carter is sexy
the hs band rocks my pants off
field trip on thursday
FALL OUT BOY IS COMING TO HOSTON ON JULY 13!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOLY SHIT THAT IS COOL.

Now I msut go watch real world and do my speech more. Adios.

llalala

2004-04-30T01:40:35Z

Tomorrow is Jessicas partay. Fun, fun, fun. I need to memorize that fucking speech. DAMN it sucks ass. I don't want to, blah blah blah.

If I dont learn anything tonight or tomorrow(not going to happen) im gonna work my ass off this weekend.

HAHA people nominated me for best smile and best personality. I disagree major. What if I win? It'll be suprising. I guess I'm not as big of a loser as I thought. I made student council people are nominating me for something. It kind of feels good to know people don't hate me. Because I never thought of any of these people as my friends, people that actually like me. It's like a reward saying "wake up, you're not a loser" Im such a dork. go me go me..

HOLD YOUR BREATH BECAUSE YOU'LL ONLY MAKE THINGS WORSE.

Real Player. FUN. -jana rocks-

2004-04-27T01:31:37Z

HEHEHEHE, I downloaded real player a few days ago. I think I'm gonna convert all my cds to it when i have 50 million hours, they save slow.

Did the wal-mart thing. Got the Hanson cd. It's weird, yes, very. That's ok. I thought Brand New was odd and different when I first got the cd, I just keep telling myself everythings gonna be ok.

I'm getting my nails done for the banquet and my mom said i could keep em for the month of may. And she said I might get to keep them on for June too, maybe. Fingernails are pretty. I love being a girl... purses, clothes, hair, nails, purfume, make up.. it's so fun. If I was boy it wouldn't be very fun.

Yes hanson, very weird. Erin lent me a tape of them that I have to watch some time soon. She is so funny. My hair is pretty today. I just washed it and figured out it can now go into a pony tail. Oh geez, I want my long hair back.. yay. I can't wait unil it gets long again.

Hanson cd, almost saved to Real Player.

All That's Left=Good band.
JamisonParker=Great band.

I like Jana, she is so cool. I dont think she knows it, but she is one of the coolest people I know. She is really awesome. Go jana it's yo birthday.

HAHAHA, today John Blanda goes.. DUDE, I punched my number in 7 times! HAHAH,that was great. It deserves a high-five.

Hanson is saved.
Must go listen to Penny and Me.
FUN! bye bye.

So it's Patrick's birthday tomorrow. ^_^ cute kid. I just like him to death.(thats a new one, eh?) I just like him to death, hehe. -cuz penny and me like to roll the windows down-Note to self: It's Patrick's birthday tomorrow. Have to do something special for him in some way.
He isn't even 21 yet.
Oh yeah, tomorrow I planned to wear my FOB shirt and I didn't even know it was his birthday, Go me go me.

Ok so today, erin and me were walking down the hall talking about licking peoples toes (thank you caitlin:)) and we were just like ew heheheheh and stuff.. then it got silent for a few seonds, and we both go, "that's gross" at the exact same time. I mean.. exact. MWAHHAA Chris Chris CHRISSSSSSSSSSSS.

I feel like my life is too good. It's too good it makes me want to cry. Something bad always happens to the good ones, right?

Cigars in the summer time...

2004-04-25T02:17:57Z

Under the sky by the light I can feel you read my mind, i can see it in your eyes...

i really care and appreciate about 10 things right now.. mom dad grandmother erin penny and me blake brand new fall out boy and tv the internet

I am Heaven sent, don't you dare forget...

2004-04-23T23:01:26Z

LALALA.. dude why why why why why why why why do I keep thinking about Mr. Blake Roddy. I am going nuts. I NEED TO TALK TO HIM AGAIN I NEED TO I NEED TO TALK TO BLAKE AGAIN! It's not fair he is older than me by 4 years :( not fair. not fair. not fair. he is so cool. no, he is a cool asshole, is asshole one word or 2?
Geez, Mr. Troy have 273783278324745784365784365784365783465 more parties, please. -puppy dog eyes-
I could get his number from my mom or my dad and I could call him. But I am not, I just need to tell him some stuff and ask him something THAT I SHOULD HAVE ASKED HIM ON SATURDAY! If he is then I really need to know.. man. :):) Go Blake itz yo burrrrrrfday, shake yo bootay cause itz very sexay.

HEY HANSON IS COOL. I like their song Pennt and Me.. play that about 6 years ago and I might've liked Hanson. Play MMMBOP 6 years ago and I DIDNT EVER LIKE HANSON, and now I know why... they sang like girls, and looked like kurt cobain traped inside a 10 year olds body. :P

PENNY AND ME TONIGHT! I must go find that song.. hmm, yeah. BYE BYEEEEEEEEEEE

So, you like Taking Back Sunday, right?

2004-04-19T01:59:03Z

Sorry, it's been 8934327840 days since I've written. Heres the low-down on the last few days.

Well Monday was my birthday, great day.
Tuesday I saw Blake. He kept looking at me, Saturday I figured out why.(more to the story LATER)
Friday was my party. we went to the mall, and I had very much fun. Heres the deal..
-glued pennies
-met jake and he started stealing a table and running off with it. he had an emo friend with a soco shirt on, and i said, something corporate is cool... and he smiled and gave me thumbs up and i pointed my finger at him because i had my hand too full to do it back. we took a picture of jake and his friend hugging like queers, it was cute. then we went away to wet seal for something. then we wanted to remember jake's bands name and we couldnt so we went to spencers and saw a blue haird girl playing the ukulele. i said.. you are good. you should put a hat down so we can give you money.. and we threw money in her hat, she was really really cool. jake left so we wanted to go find him. erin said i bet they are at tilt, sure enough, they were. and i go.. HEY DUDE, WHATS UP and he just looked at me like i was foreign. but eventually we asked him what was his band, and he gave us the website, then it led into shoe, bag, paper signings, it was great. like 5 or 6 of us held hands and this is what happens when the same gender walks in the mall holding hands.. you get stares and people saying, its a lesbian group. you also get 2 dudes that go.. AW WILL YOU HOLD MY HAND?!!! to his friend. then we went to my house and chilled and duck taped our selves and whatever else.

Saturday, i went shopping with hannah. fun fun, she got some cool clothes, really really cute skirt. after that it was like 5pm my mom came and got me. and she informed me mr. troy was having a victory party, and of course my heart started pounding and i had the butterflys, because party for troy means the roddy family, hellz yeah biatch. so my mom said i could bring and friend, and of course it was hannah. i wore me NEW FALL OUT BOY SHIRT that erin gave me. we drove up at the same time the roddys' did. blake was in the front seat, oh yeah. so i showed hannah, and she was like.. HMMMMM! we parked by each other... he had bad sun burn :( poor guy.. details down there :)
I got a Louis Vuitton purse, oh yeah. it's a replica, so it's fake but still it says made in france and it smells like leather, so its all good. today i got my pictures developed, well in the process anyways.. well im anxious to re-live my blake moment because i knew he was gonna talk to me that day, after 3 times.. yeah. and j-14 said it was a lucky day, on friday i was thinking, i need to see blake, and i did, and he even talked to me. so i say yes that is a lucky good day for me. thank you erin for getting me that fall out boy shirt! i like it but it also attracted BLAKE!!!!!

well, so we parked by each other. we talked to his mom, my mom talked to him. then she tryed to pull the "have you met blake" thing, and i walked away. so whatever... we ended up at the same table as them anyways, so blake was gonna sit there the whole time. THAT WAS SO COOL. we sat down for a second, and blake was at the other side of the table. it was weird, me and hannah just talked or whatever. i could feel him staring at me. whatever, he did that the last time i saw him too. so me and hannah got up with my mom to get in line for food, and we did get out food. not far behind was mr. blake. he got food. so we sat down, and blake sat by hannah. :P i let her sit there because i couldn't handle it. nothing was said interacting us until i ate a tomato. wait no before that i asked mr. ken is he knew what viva las vegas meant, and he said ask blake, so blake raised his eye brows and i asked him and he goes, viva la.. or somethinng like that.. or mayebe he goes.. la means live.. i go.. WHAT? he goes, LIVE.. i still didnt hear him and i go, WHAT? he goes.. it means LIVE. i said, OHHHHHHHHHHHHH, that is weird. nothing else happend until i ate a tomato and i go, mom i just ate a tomato, and she is like.. ok.. i said i dont like tomatos, and mrs. donna goes, neither does blake. i was like.. hellllllll yeah. then there was the awkward sitting there knowing he is there but you dont want to look at him, until my mom or someone said something about hawaii, and blake goes, i want to go, can i come?! and someone goes you can hide in the suit case, and he goes, YEAH!!!!! it was great.. then my mom asked him how he fixed his hair and if he uses straightening iron, and he is like.. i get out of the shower and shake my head. and he did this thing that i missed because i was talking to hannah, he did his hands in a flippy motion and goes.. it just goes wah.. and my mom started cracking up.. and he did it again, then i looked up, and my mom goes.. one more time for the girls, and he did it, and i go dang i wish my hair would go wah. he laughed at meeeeeeeeeee!!!!!! we went to throw our stuff away and people moved seats so there were some closer to him. well we were pretty close to him.. hannah sat down and he goes.. hey! is that your beer?! and she goes, OHHHHHH YEAHHHHHH. it was great. then awkward slience.. and he struck conversation with me, oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah.. he goes.. so fall out boy(thank you erin, i love you)? my friends went to see them in houston a few weeks ago. i said oh man that is so cool, i wanted to go to that... it was on like march 30th or something with mest. he goes, i dont like mest, i said, i do! and he just looked at me.. there were many face expressions that i cannot even begin to explain because they were too cute. awkward silence... i stared at him, and he stared back and goes.. SO, you like taking back sunday, RIGHT? i said, OH YEAH, they are awesome (yay he noticed my shirt, go amanda) he goes "their new stuff sucks because, well heres the story ya see, john nolan left taking back sunday with a full record of songs then quit the band now hes in a band called straylight run, they are so much better than taking back sunday, you should listen to them", i said.. oh ok cool.. he is like yeah.. then i said isnt that tell all your friends? he goes, no thats old they have some new stuff, i said OH.. well cool...i haven't heard any new stuff, i like tell all your friends. then i asked him about brand new and he told me he met jesse lacey, it took all i had to not say.. OMG OMG OMG OMG JESSE LACEY IS SO FUCKING SEXY OMG YOU MET HIM!!!!!!! he said how he went to "the brand new concert with his girl friend" how sweeet emo concert with the girl. i was like, really? really? really? that is SO cool! then i asked him all this shit about bands and named off a lot.. finally i decided to ask the stupidest thing ever, deffinately the WORST thing i could have ever asked him EVER. i go.. do you like good charlotte. he laughed at me, and he goes.. no they sold out their old stuff was good though. i used to like good charlotte, i have 5 quotes from benji where he said he'd never be on mtv. then i said, ok whatever, i like them.. i met their drummer he goes.. which one? i said the bald one, he goes.. oh their new one. we started off tyath and we argued (which he was right :)) he pulled some bull shit about aaron their old drummer and how he moved to wakefield and i said.. wakefeild sucks :) :) and he goes.. no wakefield kicks good charlottes ass! and everyone says one of their songs is like motivation porclamation and they copied when gc copied hanson about "the first 10 seconds on waldorf", i laughed at him and i said, okay yes.. that is weird. and he goes.. what? you are laughing at me, YES!! I LIKE HANSON, do you have a problem? i said, no of course not, whatever.:) then more bands were mentioned and he knew EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM.. then dashboard came.. and i go CHRIS CARRABA CANNOT SING AT ALL! he goes, oh yes he can, he sings great. then he goes.. well he doesnt sing any better than adam lazzara. i screwed up my words, and said, they sing the same.. and he goes.. WHAT? NO THEY DONT! i said.. wait i meant they both have bad voices.. and he goes no.. and i changed the subject when i said.. how come you know SO much about good charlotte if you dont like them, he goes.. i know everything about music there is to know, i mean i know every thing.. i said hahahahahahahaha ok what else do you know? he goes, well what do you want to know.. i said. hmmm... i dont know what do you know? he told me something else, i forgot. oh yeah some where up there he told me about how his girl friend kissed benji 5 years ago and hhhe has pictures. i said, dude haha, really?? then he goes, what are you SAD now? i said no i dont like the twins they are too caught up in the fame and he goes well who do you like PAUL?!!!!!!!!!(with this weird face and accent) billy? Chris? (how the does he know SO much if they "sold out" and he "hates" them and they "suck") he secretly likes them, i know. anyways back tot he conversation... i dont remember anything else, oh yeah he changed the subject off music and he goes.. seriously yall need to let me go to hawaii with yall.. come on amanda i can have YOUR ticket and YOU can hide in the suit case! i said, NO, YOU can take the suit case. then he goes.. wait.. i know.. ill take your moms ticket and ride in the plan.. then hannah goes.. SURE! :) :) and then blake said, OH WAIT, get this, how about I take your mom and your dad's tickets and me and Brett can go with you guys, and i go OH YEAH!!!!!! hannah goes, wouldnt bother me.. and he goes.. oh yeah! that's what we'll do, im sure we are much funner. it was so great. blake is the bomb.. then for like 1 hour i didnt talk to him.. i saw him again and he started dancing, and hannah pointed at him and laughed and he walked by and goes, oh yeah im a dancing machine. 30 minutes went by.. you know.. we were really bored.. lala.. didnt talkt o blake.. didnt really inter act with him for a few hours.. then at 11pm he goes.. HEY ITS 11! i said wow its 11 already.. some kid comes up to him and goes.. hey blake do you like spaghetti o's he goes.. dude! hell yeah they kick ass. and the dude goes, dude! i know.. all the kids were getting on my nerves, and alex moved to the other table so i followed him and then came along every one else.. which got more annyoing... then i jsut stared at blake and then looked away.. i looked back at him and found him STARING AT ME.. and i said, what?! he knew it got on my nerves so THEN the idiot wouldnt stop staring at me.. so i decided to just stare back, omg it was great, he is so beautiful. we stared at each other for long time, then i started to think how creepy that was and iit freaked me out and i covered my face and he started laughing at me! stuff happend.. you know whatever.. i didnt talk to him for a while.. then i went to get some food and i was facing hannah talking to her and he threw and m&m at my left boobie, and i go hahaha, what was that for? he goes.. dude, you like good charlotte(trying not to sound like he was joking) dude.. this is so long ive been writing for like a hour or longer, its nuts... ok im gonna finish.. then he told me his hair was cooler than mine i said, oh yeah your hair rocks. he goes, i know and he smiled at me. then i said, have you heard coheed and cambria.. he goes.. yes i have i saw them with thursday.. and its camBERia not cambria i was like.. whatever same thing.. then the night went on.. i lined up chairs and layed down.. and he walked up and tried to dump me out, i was like... no please dont that would suck. he laughed at me and walked away. so then finally we were leaving and he goes.. STRAYLIGHT RUN AMANDA!!!!! i said, yes i am going to remember that. and i did.. and they are awesome.. some how i dont remember but before i left he told me he liked to shop at the salvation army and good will and the treasure chest, and he loves it.. he said he gets all his clothes from there and i should too because at the salvation army they give you a garbage sack for $5 and you fill it up with how ever much you can.. i was like.. haha, cool. then he didnt say bye, but he looked like he wanted to.. we left. end yay! now im going to talk to caitlin.

turtlenerdsrock @ 2004-04-12T21:22:00

2004-04-13T02:34:45Z

Lush posted: yesterday...
HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY!!
Hope you have a good one, and have plenty of cake.

clever napkins Posted: Apr 11 2004, 11:45 PM
and happy birthday!! :::throws birthday glitter:::

bpunx04 Posted: Apr 11 2004, 11:47 PM
awww Happy Birthday Amanda....how old will you be if you don't mind me asking?

Jezebel Posted: Apr 12 2004, 07:50 AM
Amanda: Happy birthday!

Bite.to.break.skin Posted: Apr 12 2004, 08:00 AM
Happy Birthday Amanda! *hands you a cake*

My Favourite Scar Posted: Apr 12 2004, 12:12 PM
Happy Birthday to Amanda!

Created_To_Destroy Posted: Apr 12 2004, 08:57 PM
yay! Happy B-Day Amanda!!!!! Hope you had a great day!
::gives you cookie::

YAY!!!!! My birthday is today and they love me. AW HOW SWEEET.
lacey was the first person to wish me happy birthday, she was so excited. :) :) lacey is nice. I saw her at rio ritas and she waved at me and was like.. AMANDA! HAPPY BIRTHDAY I WAS THE FIRST PERSON TO WISH YOU A HAPPY BIRTHDAY, IM SO EXCITED. COME GIVE ME A HUG BECAUSE I HAVENT SEEN YOU IN SO LONG! hehe, it was great. that like made my whole day. I got new pjs a bag thing from my grandmother. I got a new hair brush and $100 from my parents. It was a great birthday. I bought 3 new shirts:
1. It was pink, brown, green, and white stripes on it.
2. it says punk'd
3. it's a TBS one that says.. if we go down, we go down together.
I bought the Brand New Cd. OMG YAY!!!!! I cant wait until I go back to the mall on friday and then i can buy the rest of the stuff i want which is..
1. FOB shirt
2. Air band shirt
3. Brand Nizzle shirt
4. MxPx left coast punk "rawk" shirt.
5. NFG shirt
6. SP shirt, i almost bought that today.
Im not getting ALL of those, it'd cost me a fortune!
OK I'm having a Finding Nemo party, heres whats gonna happen:
5pm-everyone gets there
5-6pm-eat pizza
6-6:15- leave
6:45-7pm- arrive at the mall
7-9 shop till we drop.. or until we get tired!
9pm-10am-duck tape out selves and stay up late.
it's gonna be great. YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYA.
BYE BYE
oh my.. someone from topeka, kansas is calling on call wave. how weird.
AH MY GOSH GUYS, the new sugarcult cd comes out tomorrow, im gonna have to get that on friday!

OH YEAH today i got the LAST Brand New cd, boy was I lucky.. every where i went it was sold out. hehe.

hey lush.. have fun.

2004-04-10T22:17:02Z

HEY Lush, what is a lush? Im gonna start saying hey lush. :) :) :) It might mean love.. who knows?

Well tonight the easter bunny comes.. hehe. then monday is my birthday! yay! i get new shirts and a new cd amd whatever else i find if it isn't too expensive. yayyyy.

what IS a lush? I'm off to find out.

this may never start

2004-04-07T01:13:12Z

we could fall apart, and i'd be your memory.

OR...
This WILL never start
we MAY fall apart
and I WON'T be your memory.
GAINED your sense of fear
feelings INSECURE
WILL I be your memory?

It never will explain its self, DEAR.

I held hands with him today. I don't even like him, but I kind of do. He is so sweet, but he is so..

2004-04-05T02:09:19Z

UGLY!
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OH YEAH...
represent BIATCH...
TREVOR WOLFE

JOHN SNOWDEN

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I thought this looked really cool...

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Good day today. All is said and done. John Snowden and Trevor Wolfe rock the world.

OMG!!!!!!!!

2004-04-04T00:17:11Z

OMGGGGGGGGGGGG I MET CORY MORGAN AND JOHN SNOWDEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Those are the people I wanted to meet, but I found more interesting ones! Number 33 mr. smile a lot. I forgot his name... oh yeahhhhhh trevor wolfe. Maybe he was a fill in... he isn't in the poster. Oh well, he is still awesome. Trevor Wolfe was weird and nice. He was weird because all he did was smile the whole time. Maybe it was my hyper smile that made him happy. Here I'll explain it.. I walk up with a HUGE smile on my face and he smiled at me really big, and I was still smiling and I said, HEY will you sign my shirt?!!! and he raised his eyebrows with a bigger smile and was like, sure thing. IT WAS SO GREAT HE HAD THE AWESOMEST SMILE EVER AND HE SMILED THE WHOLE TIME I WAS LOOKING AT HIM HE IS THE COOLEST PERSON EVER.Not really, but he still rocks. Warren Toews has "OMG BEAUTIFUL" eyes. They are SOOOOOO blue, they rock. He was nice too. Ryan Fultz was really cool too. Out of everyone Cory and Trevor were the absolute most nicest people ever. OK Mr. Snowden was nice too. When you ask him to sign something, he'd be like.. SUUUUUUUUUUUURRRRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEE and drag it out with this really nice/deep voice. HE IS SO HAWT. SO IS CORY MORGAN, OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!! When cory was signing my shirt, he goes... AH MAN! OHHH my gosh.. I screwed up SO bad, dude. I said, uh oh.. and he is like, nahhhhh I'm playing with ya.
As for the evil ones, yeah number 27 ashlee langdon or something. he wasn't very nice.
1. he was obnoxious and yelled in my ear and scared the SHIT out of me. he was yelling at the radio people..
2. he goes.. AHHHHHHHHHHH DUDE! TURN THE FUCKING THING UP!
3. He almost spit on me.. nasty chewing tobaco spit, mind you.
4. he scribbled on my shirt that was his autograph, I think he was drunk or something.
There were other rude ones, but you know, he stood out.

OH YEAHHHHHHHH, before we met them we went to the hockey game. There wasn't ONE fight. SO we got out skates and went on the ice then everything I explained up there happend. EXCEPT for one thing. John Snowden was skating with the little kids. So hannah was like, man I wish I was that little girl... I said, you know what? I bet he's never had someone our age ask him to skate with them. So then we skated around saying how awesome it would be if she took one hand and I took the other. I was like, yeah hannah ask him if he wants to skate with us. She was like no.. and I don't blame her for being freaked. I was myself, heh. THEN she kind of talked me into it, I was ready to go ask him because he was by his self, and looked like he was going in. I figured I could ask him and he'd be like, okay sure, ONEEEE more lap before I go in. But I kind of got scared and stalled for a few seconds and him and Cory made their way into the dressing room. :( OH WELL HE IS SO FUCKING HAWT JOHN SNOWDEN AND CORY MORGAN ARE SO COOL. I figured out why Trevor isn't on the poster. It's because he IS like a "fill in" he musn't be very good.
:( because they had a few guys out because of a bad fight against FLORIDA... i guess he was filling in

Survey

2004-04-02T18:49:28Z

1. if you could rename yourself, what would your name be? I don't care, I like my name.
2. what is your favorite band of all time? Of all time? You honestly expect me to narrow it down to one band OF ALL TIME?!
3. what do you think of GOOD CHARLOTTE? They are awesome.
4. what is the first thing you do in the morning? Hit snooze.
5. what was the last concert you went to? Good Charlotte.
6. what was the last thing you ate? A hot dog.
7. what do you think of courtside romance (we'll see how musically educated all you kids are)? So, I'm not musically educated?
8. are you my type? Who are you?
9. describe the dream house: Whit picket fence with pretty flowers and a white house with columns in the front.
10. where do you want to go to college (if you want to go)? Tecas A&M
11. put your favorite song lyrics here: "My smile is an open wound with out you..."- Fall Out Boy. That lyric is just for today, It'll change.
++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
My name is: Amanda
I may seem: crazy
but I: am still crazy.
People who know me think I: am weird.
If you knew me you'd probably: wouldn't like me.
Sometimes I feel: like freaking out with excitement.
My days are pretty: great.
In the morning I: turn on the radio.
In school I: talk to my friends and sit through 2 out of 8 boring classes.
I like to sleep: at night.
If I could be doing anything right now I would: go talk to Brent at Brent's house.
Money is: great.
One thing I wish I had is: a boyfriend?
One thing i have that I wish I didn't is: i don't know.
All you need is: friends and family.
All I need is: cool friends and food.
If I had one wish it would be: another wish. So, now I have 2 wishes. They would be a million dollars and a boyfriend.
When I look in the mirror I see: a half ugly half pretty me.
Love is: so emo.
My body is: weird looking. I have a semi flat stomach(there is a bulge) and then big hips that jsut like to curve out and a huge bootay. WEIRD.
If I could see one person right now it would be: BRENT.
Something I want but I don't really need is: a iPOD player.
Something I need but I don't really want is: i don't know.
I live for: everything.
I dare you to: kiss your own ass.
I am afraid of: muderers and kid nappers.
It makes me angry when: people act immature when they are having a dispute with others.
I dream about: what I dream.
++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
1. What size is your bed? FULL.
2. What do you wear to bed? I GO commando. Not really, I wear whatever I want.
3. How many people regularly sleep in your bed? 5! one.
4. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? no.
5. If you could wake up next to any famous person who would it be? Pete wentz or Patrick.
6. What would have happened the night before? haha...
7. How many people can comfortably sleep in your bed? 2 or 3
8. Who is the next person you would like to have in your bed with you? NOT IN A BAD SEXUAL WAY, I PROMISE. BRENTTTTTTTTT.
9. What position do you go to sleep in? Stomach.
10. What position do you wake up in? Back.
11. Have you ever woken up in a really weird position? Yes.
12. How many blankets/covers do you have on your bed? 2.
13. Do you hog the blankets? No...
14. Have you ever found your pillows on the other side of the room? No...
15. When was the last time you fell out of bed? Like last year.
16. Do you have any strange bed habits such as sleep talking etc? No.
17. Do you snore? Nope.
18. Hows about drooling? I think...
19. How many pillows do you have on your bed? 2.
20. Do you tend to sleep with a fan? Always. Yes, or I cannot sleep.

Check it...

2004-04-02T18:06:05Z

OH YEAH LOOK WHAT I CAN DO! Look I figured out how to make a LJ cut so my entries won't be so long. Go Amanda it's yo birthday.

April Fools Day sucks...

2004-04-02T04:30:06Z

I hate april fools day. I think it sucks wang. I hate all the little kids going... look there's a cow! April fools! That is so fucking annoying. I felt sick today.. geeeesh. I hate it. :) My man bradddddddddley is so fucking cool! He is so hard core... he is a awesome little kid. :) :) :) Yay Bradley. He didn't do anything special today he just goes... HEY!! COOL SHIRT!!!!!! I was like, yeah dude and I did the thumbs up thing. Hehe... Today I almost had a chance to sit with um, my dearie. HEEEEEEEEEEEEE had is leg in the fucking seat, and he knew I was looking for a place to sit. BUT I DIDN'T SIT WITH HIM BECAUSE THE OTHER DUDE MOVED HIS LEG FIRST. I was sitting in this seat with a fat dude who like took up 85% of the seat, mind you, he had his knee in my side, and half my butt cheek was on the seat. Then my dearie had this look like, sorry... GOSH HE IS SO CUTE! I think I lurve him. How many guys do you know that have sexy hands? Not many, ok, this dude has sexy hands. It's so weird, I don't know.. they are so cool. :) :) :) they are huge too, MAWHAHAH! He's way too old anyways, but it's fun to look forward to SOMETHING everyday. :) yeah, like hoping the bus is so full that there isn't anywhere to sit besides with him. He is so cute, all he does is stare out the window. OMG! The other day I looked back there, of course for no apparent reason[not], and he was looking out the window and I saw his reflection in the window. It was so beautiful... ok I think I got carried away... don't mind me. Who else thinks poor Billy needs to gain weight? Poor guy. , and I'm wondering if they are the same ones as the old picture. I will end with this, well I was going to be something until I noticed the file name got split in half on that picture and now it just says…"asses" instead of the whole file name which is, "Joelnewoldglasses" hahah. Second time, I will end with this... Brent is very very very very very cute, bye. Oh gawsh, what if someone thought I was talking about rich-boy williams.. that'd suck! :P

So bury me in memory...

2004-04-01T04:06:37Z

HAHAH!!!!!!!!!! mest is in Houston NOW playing a show with FOB and Matchbook Romance.. I think someone from nappy went. Myabe they'll come back with pictures and autographs.

TODAYYYYYY was great, I guess.

CHELSEA: I hate Amanda's FOB cd
CHELSEA: they're racist

I find that reallllllyyyyyyy funny. :) :) :) :) :) :)

There is this girl in 4th grade who obviously said something about our bus drivers drivingwhenthe girl got off my bus driver went, do you have a problem with the way I drive?and the girl was clueless.. so we asked the bus drvier what she did, and she said that her and this other girl wouldn't sit down... so she made a sharp turn and made them fall over. HAHAHA!!!!!!

Poor Jana, at least I'm hre friend. I tried to help her today. I think it worked. Stephanie is such a bitch. She needs to grow up.

WITH EVERY LIE I EVER SAIDDDDDDDDDDD CONFESSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To my favorite liar, my favorite scar.

2004-03-29T23:51:51Z

YOU'RE WORNGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahahah! That's funnay. Everytime someone says you're wrong, I think of YC and their song I think it's like Avondale. MIGHTYYYYYY KING ON AVVVVVVONDALE, I JUST DON'T...

FAL OUT BOY! Anyone want to make me a LJ layout of FOB? I'm going to have to try to make me one. I made this one.. but all I did was type FALL OUT BOY on it.

I HAD A GREAT DAY. I had so much fun, hehehehe. I had an itch attack, and I was freaking out. It was kind of freaky.

I SAW BRENT TODAY, AND HE IS SO CUTE.

I am such a sucker
And I'm always the last to know
My insides are...

Let's play this game called "when you catch fire. I wouldn't piss to put you out.

2004-03-29T03:17:29Z

Dudeeeeeee, I have been busy lately. It's crazy. So much has happend I only remember the highlights...

We made music videos, BS and Nsync ones. IT WAS FUNNY! I got 24 moquito bites on friday night, crazy stuff. I got the FOB cd and a new cd player. YEP YEP. Saturday I went to theee crawfish boil for Mr. Troy's election. Blake was there... yes Blake the one I said was HAWT! He was wearing a Brand New Fall Tour 03 shirt. I was eating crawfish watching him, then I got done and I was bored so I kind of followed him around a while. I'm pretty sure he is Kenny Roddy's son. My dad and his dad are golfing buds, cool stuff. OK SOOOOOO I got bored and started stalking him for 3 hours, until danielle got there. I let her eat, then I went to play on the slide. Alex and Trevor were there. SOOOOOOOOO the 3 of us along with little kids were all sliding down the "super slide" IT WAS SOOOOOOOO FUNNNNNNNNNN. I went down all weird, and everyone was laughing at me. I couldn't stop laughing, it was the greatest thing that's happend in a while. Some people are just so nice. I like people like that. If only youuuuuu knew who I was talking about, because you don't. WMAMAHWHWHAHAHA! Then there's today. SORRY FOR THE LACK OF UPDATES.

Why do you hate me, sorry I'm not who you want me to be. You can just go away. BYE.

It's happening again, FOB is awesome... I have listened to their WHOLE cd a lot today. I can turn it on and not have to skip through it. I haven't had that happen in a while. It's great. Well I must go, oh yeah, WAIT. I had a freak-out today. I was going crazy hitting the printer and ripping out papers as they got stuck. It was freaky, I felt like crying because the printer wouldn't work. So I sat there feeding paper through it trying to fix it and every paper got jammed. I broke the paper holder off I got so mad.. then i hit it really hard like 5 times, It was crazy. OK bye, must.. sleep.. now.

When the moonlight hits your bright eyes, I go blind.

2004-03-21T03:20:41Z

TODAY IS NAMED, MIGHTY EMO DAY! All the emos' come out on the first day of spring.

GAWSHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, I love Fall Out Boy fans at GCN they are so awesome. That's why I dedicated a whole post to them just to say.. You guys are so swwwwwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeetttttt!!

HEHEHEHEHE!

I hate it when people TRY and TRY their very hardest to make you jealous, but it doesn't work. Then they try more and more and they make their selves look like dumbasses. Sometimes I want to scream in their faces.

wOULDN'T iT bE aNNOYING iF sOMEONE tYPED lIKE THIS?ahahahahHHHAHAHA!

Keep it in control or you'll go crazy.

2004-03-20T05:34:09Z

Sugarcult is a good band, Chris can play their drum parts! yay chris. :)

So some dude(i think it was a dude) imed me and goes, yeah check out our band at blahblahblah.com. So, i'm like... aw, ok! and, I did.. and THEY WERE SO AWESOME! Oest was their name. www.oestoest.tk check them, yo.

I need to check out the get up kids. I need to listen to more songs!

There is so many stories I could tell today. I don't feel like it. Long story short.. brent said.. GET IT OFF! GET IT OFF! GET IT OFF BEFORE I MAKE YOU LICK IT OFF! It was fucking funny. I might talk to him, maybe. I need to talk to him, I do I need to.. he is so sweet. :)

You're the one!
You're the one!
You're the one that's making me craz...
I'm in love, but it's only temporary.

WELLLLL, there was no point to this!

WAIT! I saw Hilary Duff on TV live from the ford arena! It was so cool.

I have this sudden urge to talk to Trevor. GAWSH, WHY?! I hardly ever talk to him. This is freaky, oh well. He hasnt been on in ages, and it's not like I can walk up to him and go, uh hey, whats up? Because then, that'd be weird. O.O

Something told me to jump. I don't care now, we don't care now, I'll pack my things now. Fuck this..

2004-03-19T01:21:58Z

Shit right now, I'm checking out. Hey dad what ya say dad?

Pete has a broken heart. I think he recently had a dispute with a good friend or a girlfriend. Poor guy. :(

Today was the track meet. It was so fun! Man, I wonder if trevor's screen name died or something. He hasn't been on in a long time. HMMMMMMMMM. I bet his screen name died. Yep, that's what happend.

Hey man, Robby Carter is damn sexy. His body is beautiful. Caitlin and MEEEEEEEE saw him today. Erin goes, hey look someone's here to see yall! HAHA, it was Robby. That's awesome. The other day he was walking down the hallway, and I was looking at him and I happend to spazz out and go OMGGGGGGGGGGG CAITLINNNNNN right when he was looking at us. :P OH WELL. HEHE, then today Caitlin looked at him a lot of times and he noticed. I think he might be a bit freaked out. OH WELL! It's all gravy. Caitlin saw him sitting on the bench... so she went to sit with Chelsea, haha. And she was staring at ROBBY the whole time. Then, I saw his side, it was hawt believe it or not. I'm a poet and I didn't even know it. :P

POINT IS... ROBBY CARTER IS SEXY.